Okay little miss. I waited for somebody to speak to you but since almost nobody did, I'll just have to do it myself.
In case you didn't ask anyone around you: You just can't bottle everything up. The pain will spread out, slowly chipping away your sanity to shreads. And trust me, it's absolutely not the best thing to feel.
So, why not try to drag yourself out of the void?
Who knows, someone might have enough hands to grab and pull you back up.